Wednesday, July 19, 2017
And So It Begins...
Monday, May 22, 2017
Snake Medicine Dream
I remember going to visit a student of whom I had been very fond of when I
taught him. He had been sick (Crohn's disease) and was now doing much better
because he had finally been diagnosed and had everything he needed to be
healthy. I had found out his mother was very sick and I went with the intention
to also see her. I thanked her for working so hard to help him get well and I
wanted the same for her. She explained to me that it took a lot out of her to
help him and now she was very tired. I gave her a blessing and we hugged then I
left. I went to a doctor's office at a clinic to get her help. While I was
there I spoke to the doctor then they sent me in to visit a little girl
that was very sick. She lay on the bed almost completely uncovered except for a
cloth draped over her. She had sores all over her stomach that the
doctors could not get to go away. Her father was there and I asked her
name and what was wrong because she looked very weak and fevered. Her father
said the doctors did not know what to do for her and she was very sad. I prayed
over her and gave her a blessing then I returned to the waiting room. I had to
wait in the waiting room for a considerable amount of time and I didn't know
why. A woman named Karen came to me and I knew she was a great healer and
psychic. She asked me many questions about a picture and what types of
triangles I saw in the various images. (this I did not understand at all
although I got them all correct.) Then she cut open a potato and rubbed the juices
on my arm. I saw a snake in various shades of beige and light browns
wrapped around her arm. She took the same knife that she had cut the potato
with and cut into the snake making it bleed a intense yellow blood. I was about
to protest about her hurting the snake when she had someone rub the other half
of the potato into my face. I wondered why she was she trying to make
me kiss the potato. I was so distracted buy this that I did not see her put a
large amount of the snake's blood on my arm where she had rubbed the potato.
At this point I actually woke up because my husband shook my arm to tell me
he was leaving for work. I instantly got a powerful headache right between my
eyebrows. After he left I went into a meditative state and asked questions about
the dream.
Karen came to me and explained that the potato starches were to protect my
skin from the blood of the snake. She explained that it was rubbed on my face
so that I would moisten my fingers, rub them where the potato juices were
on my face and then dip in in the snakes blood to smooth over the sores on the
little girl. I would meet her and she would bring the same snake several days
in a row and in the end the little girl would be healed.
Saturday, May 13, 2017
Dear Mom
Dear Mom,
It is Mother’s Day and I just wanted to share why I love you and
why you mean so much to me. I want to thank you for allowing me to choose you
as my mother. You are one of the strongest women I have ever met. You lived
your life with the struggle of diabetes from childhood before they really
understood the disease. Even as it slowly broke down your body, you were
strong. You lost your baby girls before me and yet you were strong enough to
love and have both Faith and I. I know you loved us with all your heart. Your
will to live, was a powerful thing to behold.
You took care of me when I was sick, bandaged me when I was
hurt, protected me when I couldn’t protect myself, made sure that I learned
everything that I possibly could, and talked me through my troubles. You read
to me until I learned to read, and then you made sure that I continued to read.
You instilled in me a thirst for knowledge for all things. I learned from you
how to find out what I wanted to know. You did these things selflessly, even
when you did not feel well. You made sure we had good food to eat, and clothes
to wear even though they were not what everyone else had. As a young person, I
was embarrassed that my clothes were not as in style as my classmates, yet as I
grew older I realized it is the person inside that is what is important, not
their appearance. I learned that from you. I learned from you that family was
the most important thing in my life, and that money and possessions do not
create happiness. We had good times, tough times, happy times, and sad times,
yet our family stuck together through it all. I struggled through some tough times when I FEEL YOU LEANED ON ME TOO HEAVILY
You taught me to love just as fiercely as you did. Yes, you were
strict and perhaps you felt bad about it sometimes. That was probably was what
I needed to become the person I am. You never babied me and it made me a
stronger person with the ability to say no to people and to walk away from
people when needed. I learned from you that love is the most important aspect
of our lives and I am learning what you meant when you said I have to love
myself. All that makes me who I am came from you and the wonderful man you
chose as your husband. You were a blessing in my life as were my grandmothers
and my aunts. I would not be who I am today without you. I thank you for being
the mother I needed you to be. I know we had our differences sometimes, I
forgive you and I forgive me for all of our perceived misconceptions and
imperfections.
I love you still and I always will. I miss your talks, your
voice, and your hugs. One day we will meet on the other side.
Love Always,
Wednesday, March 1, 2017
Righteous Anger
Today I came unhinged at the meanness of some children. It brought up memories of my childhood where I was made fun of and a friend of mine was tortured relentlessly. I wanted to scream and cuss and throw things as I unleashed my righteous angry tirade on mean kids. I told them that they had no right to take the dignity of their class mate and that they should apologize. I am holding them accountable for their actions.







































