I AM... (a poem with pictures)

I am the beauty of the sunrise,

And the glory of the sunset.

I am the magnificence of the oceans,

And the song of the whale and dolphin.

I am the strength of the mountains,

and the gems they produce.

I am the wind that blows,

And the swaying of the trees.

I am the endlessness of the sky,

And the stars the sparkle in the night.

I am the flight of the bird

And the song that they sing.

I am the lover of beauty and peace.

And the giver of love.

I am the  brilliance of the Sun, 

And the light that lies within.

I am one with you,

And you are one with me.

I am one with the Divine One,

And the Divine is one with me.

~ Kelly Jeter

   2014

Message from the Stargate

All of my BELOVED
WE are All ONE
WE are All LOVE
WE are All GOD

WE are the Universe
WE are ALL ONE

A New Lesson in Loving

I have been reading The Art of Spiritual Peacemaking by James Twyman. I highly recommend any of his books but especially this book. Please read The Emissary of Light first.

I began the day after I got the book. I read faithfully until I got to lesson seven. Then I had days off in between beginning lesson seven and while reading lesson seven. I attribute this to choices I made during Christmas break with family being my major focus. then of course a few days after they left I realized I had not been reading. I read lesson 7 for two consecutive days then I did not read again for three and that was last night. I felt guilty about not holding up my end of the deal, then as I read I realized it was perfect and it was the Divine's timing. All was as it was meant to be. With that said let me give a brief summary of what I have read in this book so far, then I will explain the circumstances as to why the timing was perfect.

This book is the teachings of Jeshua ben Joseph (Jesus and Jeshua is pronounced Yeshua). James Twyman is the channel (for my lack of a better word) for these teachings. There are thirty-three lessons in the book and each lesson is to be read for three days. The author introduces you to the Emissary Wheel and goes into what each point on the wheel stands for. the points are as follows: Courage, Patience, Wisdom, Certainty, Compassion, Joy, Clarity, Understanding, Depth, Abundance, Generosity, and Agape. Agape is a word that I had to look up because I had no idea what it meant. Agape is unconditional love or perhaps more accurately put the Christ Consciousness and Love of God for humankind.

In short there are two choices we make. We can choose to live in Fear or to live in Love. To live in fear is painful at best, always worrying about things. To live in love is to accept your true self and love knowing that all the rest is fear and it is an illusion. In the first lessons Jeshua asks that we take the leap to become who we truly are and join him in the task of  finding peace within ourselves and the knowledge that we are Divine.

The spokes of the Emissary wheel I have read so far are summed up in my words. Courage is to seek the world to which you truly belong, that of the Kingdom of God. Patience is the accepting of your soul's Truth. Wisdom is the understanding that there are no differences. Certainty is not believing but knowing that you are One with all and God. Compassion is having compassion for what lies within you for you cannot have compassion for what lies beyond you. Joy is not the joy of this world but the joy of living within the Sacred Place of your heart and what is real.

How does this pertain to me? I have always been insecure at best, never trusting myself and my talents. So insecure that I shied away from many of them for many years. I doubted my skills. All confidence I had was merely the perceptions of others. I doubted my ability to love. Even though I threw myself into caring for others I did so fearing that I would lose them. Can you imagine the pain I felt each time I worried about that?  I have lost my beloved grandparents, parents and my only sister. As I lost each one my world became filled with more fear and pain. Yet my only sister gifted me in her passing as she blessed me with the reopening of my heart. this took time of course and did not happen to me all at once. In fact, it has taken four years to get me to the place in my heart where I am today.

I always was torn between putting an animal down and allowing it to die naturally. Being a lover of animals I feared this experience and often thought I would pay a penalty for it for it would be similar to killing a human. Now I know that this is not so. Fourteen and a half years ago I was blessed with a beautiful kitten from a stray that I had taken in. The kitten was pure white except the tips of its ears and tail. Caesar grew up with my children and was a constant companion to all of us. He stayed by be constantly when I needed mending from surgery and later a broken ankle. In the last month he began losing weight because I had learned of a new method of feeding him so he wouldn't gorge himself then throw up. But it continued beyond that and he lost significant weight in the last two weeks. He became bony and gaunt except for his abdomen which became filled with fluid in the last few days. He quit eating except for the little bit I could get him to eat from his plate. He spent every minute he could lying down curled up to either my husband or myself and he just didn't seem to be himself any more. I did Reiki on him in the hopes that it would cure him, but it only seemed to help the pain and suffering he was feeling.

The night before I took him to the vet he started eating and drinking more than he had been. In desperation I had made an appointment for him to take him to the vet and all day long I struggled with actually taking him because he was eating and drinking. I chose to take him wondering if he knew he would reach physical distress soon. I knew and could feel the outcome before we got there. I feared Caesar had feline luekemia or FIV, but this was not the case. At the vet's it was discovered that Caesar was critically anemic and bleeding internally from a tumor. This explained his wasting away. At that point I had to make a decision because the vet said he was so anemic he would go into crisis at any time. I must say Caesar was quite calm for the entire exam which he would not have been at any other point in his life. He had always been fearful of new people and would often hide when others came to our house to visit.

After speaking to my husband, I decided the best choice of action was to euthanize him before he reached the crisis point. Yes, this hurt my heart, I loved him. He was so loving and for the lack of a better explanation he was my soul cat. I didn't want to do it, I wanted him to be fine, but knowing there was only more suffering for him I chose for him to be released from his suffering. I will miss his blue eyes, us holding paws, his head butt kisses, him curled up next to me and his loving paw touches to my cheek. I know he is playing with Rupert and Pooh wherever he is and I told him I'd see him on the other side, which I will.

Through this experience I have learned that I am filled with compassion, love, courage and wisdom. Have I experienced grief? Yes, but I have also experienced the joy of knowing he will no longer be suffering. Does an animal have a soul? Yes, he had one of pure love.
Caesar~ 07/28/1999 -01/02/2014

Blessings, Love and Peace.

Giving Thanks

I have had an interesting 12 months. Last December on 12/21/12 I had some of the most intense experiences as I meditated. Since then I have learned so much and healed many things in my heart. I am sure I have a long way to go upon my journey, but I no longer feel the fear and distress that I once did. I have had unusual dreams and amazing visions and made my way back to my heart space. I have been amazed and will continue to be as my new spiritual connection continues to grow and develop. I have been to many Oneness Blessings, become a Deeksha Oneness Blessing Giver, and released the one thing that caused me the most grief in my heart, I broke my ankle only to learn that it was not necessary for me to be at school the first few weeks of the school year. Caesar my buddy was my closest companion while I was unable to walk. I learned about myself and my dormant talents and ventured into business using my talents. I have worked on my book and excited to say I hope to publish it soon. I have been to the North American Darshan and a Muhtki Deeksha. I met James Twyman at a workshop I have made new and wonderful friends that I hope to never lose as they are a part of my soul group. My daughter has come home from overseas and my grandchildren are growing so fast. My husband and I have been empty nesters for some time and enjoy it immensely.

I give thanks to God for all that I am blessed with. I am grateful for all lessons and guides that assist me. I choose to say YES! I will be all that I am destined to be. I am an Instrument of God's Peace, I am love, I am light, I am One with all, I am one with God.

Peace, Love and Light.

Think Before You Speak!

"I am.

Two of the most powerful words; for what you put after them shapes your reality."

~ Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

Therefore,

I am God's Love.

I am the Peace of God.

I am the Light.

I am One with All.

I am One with God.

 

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

In Peace, Love and Light,

Namaste

A Profound Experience

     Several years ago when my mother was in the hospital and slowly dying the doctors were keeping her comfortable as possible. I spent several evenings visiting her and begged for her forgiveness for something that was not my fault. The only fault that was mine was that I had not forgiven her sooner for what I decided she had done wrong. She discussed with me that there was a do not resuscitate order and that I was not to fight my sister when it came time. I agreed to this knowing that was what she had always wanted.
     I was on my way to work on her last day totally unaware that it was to be just that. I received a phone call from my sister telling me that they were removing the breathing machine because my mother had requested it. Instead of going to work I went straight to the hospital. We had to wait awhile while they found my mother a new room. All day long my mother was cheery and chatted and in the late afternoon my husband and youngest daughter came to visit. I went to the waiting room to visit with them because they couldn't all come to the room and they had brought me supper. I ate with them and said our good byes before returning to my mother's hospital room.
     Once there my aunt had said they had been looking for me because my mom was starting to have difficulties. We talked a bit and suddenly my mom tried to get out of the bed. I tried to help my sister and cousin hold her so she wouldn't fall. What I saw then in her eyes I will never forget.
     To understand what I saw you will have to first know what my mother's eyes looked like in life. She had the most amazing dark olive green eyes with little chestnut brown flecks scattered through them. They were always that color. What happened to her eyes when she tried to get out of bed is something that had troubled me for several years afterwards. My mother's eyes changed from that wonderful green to those of a wild animal. They literally changed color from green to a brownish yellow color just moments before she laid back and exhaled her last breath. It was if she were staring right through me. It seemed that she was angry because she was dying and she may have well been because she was a fighter and had fought to live for fifty years. Her last exhale was a long sighing sound and after that she didn't even resemble my mother any more.
     At the time the entire event freaked me out and left me devastated. I recall hiding around the corner in a chair crying, too numb to talk and too freaked out and actually scared to look at her body. I know my sister and aunt kept asking me if I was okay but all I could do was comfort rock and hide.
     What I have come to understand six years later is this: We are not our bodies! We are a soul that uses a physical body to experience things here on Earth. How do I know this? The body I helped keep from falling out of the bed was no longer my mother. The body that lay on the bed dead and not breathing was not my mother. The soul that was the very essence of my mother was gone from that body. Everything that was my mother had vanished and crossed over passing through the veil that separates us ever so slightly.
      I truly believe the eyes are the window to the soul and you can see when the soul is not there.
     I know my mom, dad, and sister are just over there on the other side. And for anyone that needs to know more of the truth; just know that my phone was laying on the couch a foot from me and it lit up for no reason while I typed this a message that she knew I wrote this. (There were no texts, not calls and no emails.)

Peace and Love

My HeartSpace

In my heart space I only feel love and peace, there is no fear and there are no worries.