Feeling

      Everyday I feel something new pop up from my past. Some small hurts, some large hurts but I allow myself to feel them. Things I had never allowed myself to feel and things that I had pushed down for years. I allow myself to feel the anguish and pain of it and I cry and cry. I allow myself the realization that each hurt was an experience and a lesson that led me to where I am now. It was never more than just an experience that I asked for. I am so thankful for my time alone to do this because it is private and very personal. I don't want hugs I want to feel and I want to know that it is right and good for me to feel and release. I know I am growing and changing.  I can feel it in my heart and my soul. I feel more at peace than I ever have before in my life and as each thing comes up the peace grows.

      I may always have a tender and compassionate heart. Maybe I will cry at things that hurt someone but does not bother others, but what I feel inside me is the hurting and pain of that someone. Not the physical pain of others but the pain from their heart and soul. I am love. My love is pure, straight from my soul.

      So FEEL, experience the pain, the joy and the emotions of life! Then know they are experiences and feel the PEACE and LOVE inside you, for you are connected to my soul.