The Lesson part 2

I spent my weekend in my heart space last weekend and it was the most amazing experience ever! I became a Oneness Blessing giver. Now I find that I have given myself a lesson to understand and grow from.

Tuesday evening I fell and we thought I merely sprained my ankle. I couldn't decide if I wanted to go to the emergency room or not. (You may ask why this was so hard and I will explain later) Finally we came home and I iced and elevated my ankle. I walked on it as necessary figuring that was the best for it. Thursday I went to the doctor because I had feeling I should have it checked. A friend also suggested that I should have the doctor check it.

I had x-rays done and was still walking on it and before I got home the doctor's office called to tell me I could no longer put weight on it and that they were prescribing crutches and setting me up with an orthopedic specialist because I have two spiral fractures.

Initially I was upset, and glad I had it checked but I cried. I spoke with my friend again and was telling her where and how I fell and that I thought it a miracle I didn't hit my head. She told me that a man in spirit form blocked me so I didn't hit my head. She described him and I am certain it was my grandpa. I told her that it had been hard form me to decide to go to the ER or not. She asked why and I told her because I had my foot smashed by a 6x6 beam from our shed in high school and my parents never took me to have it checked. Then I had found out years later it had been broken. She then asked me what that told me. I said that I wasn't important enough to them. She agreed and said that it was the reason I couldn't decide and ended up not going. She told me that it was now my lesson to learn to take care of me.

She called after speaking with our friends and they had said I chose this lesson before I came because it was to help me with my decisions to continue my spiritual growth and that it was part of my releasing of past hurts. She said that it wasn't going to be easy and that she wasn't going to tell me how it would be fixed, but they all saw the same thing. I knew how they will fix it with out her saying so I told her I would be getting pins. She confirmed it because I said it. She told me how they would all be with me when it came time and that afterwards as I healed I would write.

I plan to meditate as I am asleep for the pins. Or perhaps it will be a different experience which is what I feel. We shall see.

I am thankful for all my emotional healing and I hope it continues.